Racing in Circles

Yahoo! News ran an article tonight titled "Openly gay athlete wins gold medal"

Really.....

As if sexual orientation has anything to do with athletic ability.

why are they treating it like it is some sort of huge, earth shaking issue?
imagine it bein g some other minority in that headline...
people would be furious.

but no...if a gay man wins a gold medal than it must be some sort of unique, once in a lifetime expirence.

what the fuck year are we in, people!?!?!?!

in high school, so many of our varsity athletes were closeted homosexuals (beleive me, i know).
The only difference is that this diver happened to be 'out'.

Fuck it.


I understand a large portion of the LBGTQ community is proud and smiling tonight becuase of this win. And that is fine (just as it is fine for a nation to be proud of a winning representative)...but the fact that it's national news that a gay man won a gold is....beyond me.

this isnt because of my sexual orientation (as i have none)
this is because i am a human being who was brought up to believe that we live in a nation of equality for all.

grow up.

Isla Vista, California

Last night....

Last night I had a very interesting night in terms of any sort of symbolic/allegorical moments I was hoping to have in regards to my last weekend living in Isla Vista.
I went to a party at D's on DP where he is curently living.
We drank wine and chatted to a few bros.
Talked to a few girls who had the most glossy eyes and were clearly not in any clear state of mind.
Pushed my way through crowds of college students who live for the weekend while avoiding scuffing any shoes and holding my breath through the plumes of cigarette smoke that sifted above their all too done up hair.
Watched the moon's spotlight on the ocean.
And smiled all the while....

We walked DP and ran into people we knew....
strangely enough many being ones i had met my first weekend in iv.
I even stood for a few moments in a cirlce with a couple of former fontainbleu-ians as well as a former RA.
We got yelled at...we yelled.
We lied and laughed and walked that endless circle that is Isla Vista.

I thought, at the end of it, that I would feel some how complete...or at least different from my first weekend experience here, but I found myself in a similar state of being...
Quietly smiling while observing such a unique environment.
Knowing none of this is for me...but the time spent here was not wasted and would never be regreted.
Such a unique environment.

It is one big circle...IV.
Beginning sometime on a thursday evening at the 65 block of Del Playa Dr. and ending sometime early monday morning in a darkly lit room down on the 68 block of some ambiguous street.

It never ends.... due to its size and demographic this circle is constant and in many cases, the only one available. And that is perfectly fine. That is it's purpose.

Coming full circle is an interesting expereince.

Relearning what you already knew...
Watching what you have seen a million times before....
and realizing that we are still people sharing the same human experience...
And whether that experience is in Draper Utah...Westwood LA..or Isla Vista California, the point is that you live it, learn from it and realize it's significance in your own development.

:)
last night was hella tight broseph....

On Meeting New People or The Poor Man's Song

one.....two.....three....four....
the steps youve left on me, in me, forever.
without you.
take my word and break my name
ill never meet another you again. a you who i love so dear.
our fluid remarks never stopping for more than a few flickering moments
and in our glance we come to find the truth witihin forever.
with you.
i would shake your hand...i would kiss your brow
and he or she or both would know that i love them now
and then again when the sun sets below my view.
not yours...
without you.
its true ill forget some but remember what i will
as will you if our luck lasts
without you
without me

you couldnt have left a better mark
you tried and tried and we still let go
and you will go and go again and i will hold on until my eyes close for good. or bad.
how mamy mes and how many yous?
the nows, vows and goodbyes make it all worth the while
while i know it cant never last forever.
it never does.
take this time to think or think to think.
at least one more minute will give you an editorial perspective
to cut and copy what you will. or would if i was still there to show.

thank you for what you gave or for what i took
in our glourious summer of our panultimate year.

yes, last. as it will.

in me
with me
and you....

the fall comes too soon and we all know the cold too well
and..well....youre not that strong

i think i love you
i think
i love
i



ill run with you
or after

just make sure you remember the blue in my soul
and the warmth of my understanding

ill never stop asking